Frustrated

I am feeling very frustrated at the moment.  I don't understand why what happened did; I don't get how one can forget to deposit a cheque two months straight.  There is a reason that I trusted one person in my family over another to make sure that my rent cheques were deposited on time.  Sure it would have been less complicated if I had been at the same back because I could have deposited it straight into their account.  Now I am left with the prospect that I won't be able to pay my bills when I want to and that my plans for my birthday that I have wanted to do for sometime will have to be squashed because of the fact that somebody forgot.  Now I have to cancel appointments that I made with the knowledge that I needed them (hair and counselling).  Its not my fault by any degree, but it doesn't help that my employer didn't put a paycheque in my bank account today, that I thought was going to be there.  Now I have had to cancel my counselling appointment (should have known it would be a bad idea to go in December) and am thinking of cancelling my previous engagements for Tuesday.  There was a reason I didn't get anything while in the States and I will need to curtail any sort of driving in town for the foreseeable future, at least during the day time.  That will mean bus and hopefully they can get me to my hair appointment on time.

This has also led to frustration that my cousins have basically not sent me any cards this year.  I went to the trouble and expense of sending it to them and what do I have to show for it…nothing.  I have had about 5 cards this year, way down from last year and none of the regulars have sent me a card.  Sure I understand that people are busy, but honestly, you don't have to create a newsletter every year; just some holiday/christmas wishes would be nice from those that I consider close.  And I get that not everybody is somebody who gives out Christmas cards like water, but why can't people understand the basic necessity of reciprocal behaviour? That basically means that if I send you something, I should expect something in return for it.  And honestly, I would like to see something in my mailbox from time to time, especially since I barely get any mail at all.

I highly doubt my friends and family will see this post, especially since they really don't really engage with me on my book blog anyways.  Oh well.  Guess when I die, nobody will really care.

3 years

Can't believe that it's been over three years since I posted here.  Oh well.  I hope that I will be around more in the coming months, as I have been aching to write something here each time I come to the dashboard.  Hope that I will have something more to say in the coming days.

Coming to an end

Well another Christmas has come to an end and we have embarked upon a new calendar year. Right now, things are really uncertain, as I don't know where my next cheque is coming from and my bank account seems to be going downwards rather than going in a direction that I would rather it go. But I suppose there is reason for optimism, as it seems that I could possibly be getting a job at UBC sometime soon, hopefully in the next month or two. In the meantime, I don't know what I am going to do, but I guess the only thing that I should be doing is to be looking for a job, anything to keep the money coming in. Its frustrating not knowing when I am going to be working for a paycheque next and if an employer asks me why I want a job with them, I don't really know how to answer other than by telling them I need something to do while I look for a library job, which seems to turn them off and not hire me. I suppose I can tell a bit of a fib and just tell them something they would like to hear. But honestly I don't know what to tell them. I'll find a way.

Later :) I'll post photos of my trip to Whitehorse in my next posting.

Job search

Even though I haven't been long at it, the job search is starting to become frustrating. Part of the problem is that I am waiting for two positions to be decided upon and the wait is becoming increasingly frustrating, especially the one for the local school district. There is also the fact that I really don't have any sort of job at the present time to look forward to and the fact that there aren't a lot of job postings at present. Why did I have to choose a profession that only has the vast majority of its postings in June/July and November and nothing much else during the rest of the year. I am ready and able to work, but just frustrated.

Back home

I've been back home for about a month now and my room is an absolute mess; all my books that I either purchased in Kamloops or brought with me are not on shelves, primarily due to the fact that my new shelves that were purchased in December from Ikea is still in its box, waiting for my sister to take the kitchen table and chairs to her new place in Kits (her new place is about 3 blocks from the beach, but unfortunately she can't see the fireworks, apparently). Hopefully it will be out of the way in the next few days and I can get my shelves up soon after and my things reorganized.

Spent about a week with my parents and other members of my mom's family up at our place at Sun Peaks. I had a good time, except for the 25 hour power outage that my parents went through at the beginning. Despite a few outbursts, most of us had a wonderful time.

Came home to find out that one of my good friends is engaged and will likely get married next summer. I am frequently feeling as though I am being left behind, but then again I need to get off my butt and get some job applications in the mail...

Till later :)

Paris Hilton

I can't tell you how happy I am about her going to jail. One of my LJ (Live Journal is a blogging site that you can friend people and join various interest communities; if you are interested, go to http://www.livejournal.com; my user name is jayne_190) friends couldn't have been more giddy on Friday afternoon when she posted that Paris was going back to jail. Evidently, my Third Watch friends couldn't help but quote the show, at least between two of them and was very funny (you would have to watch the show to understand why it was funny).

Till later :) And yes, I am actually going to sign off at this moment, or at least I am going to get off the computer (its 11 pm and I have to get up at 5:30 am and get on the bus an hour later so I can get to work at about 7:30).

Update

Well, its almost the end of June and I am counting the days till my job here in Kamloops ends. Its hard to believe that I have been here for over 5 months and that I will be leaving soon. At this point I just want to get the hell out and not come back. It feels almost more nerve wracking than starting my job at this point and honestly I really don't want to be here and I really didn't want to be here in the first place, but I had no choice. It seems as though I have had more problems while working here than being at home and always am really tense and really can't stand it! Just wish that the end of the month would come sooner!

New job

Just thought I would let you all know that I am starting a new job on Monday as Library Tech with School District No. 73 in Kamloops. I am going to be cataloguing books for the school district until at the very least 6 months. Until then continually have me in your prayers as I start this new venture in my life.

God Bless.